My “So-called” Love Story – Chapter 2

Make sure that you have read the first chapter 😛

Okay, here’s the story continued…

“Yeah!” I passed the Junior High entry test, and I was studying at the place I wanted to. I met a lot of new friends, and you know what? I almost forgot about ‘the girl’. The new atmosphere might be the cause, but well, the arrival of the newly-known-girl was the clear cause.

The girl, one of my classmates there, is very beautiful. I don’t know about her personality, but back there, she was the one made my heart beating furiously. I seldom talk to her, but I always tried to sit on a near chair. Guess what? All I did is just stare at her pathetically, as I can do nothing. I thought she knew that I liked her; made me afraid to talk to her. I also thought that she likes me… just like the girl before.

I wanted to tell her my true feeling, but I can’t.  But it last until my second grade of Junior High. Me and my friends set a situation after school. It looks like there’s an earthquake back there, but the fact is that I trembled so much, too much. She’s in front of me, but my mind gone blank. I can’t say a thing for some seconds, until I finally shout, “I like you, would you be my girlfriend?” I shout that words with a strange expression. She’s silent for a moment, then leaving the pathetic guy behind. I didn’t know the answer, but then on the next day, one of my friend said that she was asking ‘the girl’ about the answer. The answer disappointed me;  she said that the answer is, “I don’t know him.” I was a bit depressed after, but it wasn’t change my feeling of her. I looked at the sky, and then decided to keep keeping an eye on her (hahaha).

There’s a moment I can’t forget. One day, was the day which close to final exam of the first grade. I was chatting with my friends beside the basketball field, and then suddenly a girl come closer. God, it’s her, the one that I liked. She gave me my exam card. And what’s so surprised me is that the one who gave it to me is her, not the class leader (remember it’s a class leader’s job). I was so happy. It made me terrifically happy. It’s just a small thing, but that made me think that there’s a chance of getting her.

We have ever been in the same extra-curricular group,  and that’s a great chance for me to show myself, I think. But what I show were just my weaknesses, the nervousness always made me doing some mistakes. And what was so silly, is that I always run when I met her coincidentally. That’s totally pathetic, I always act as a loser even though that’s not what I want. I don’t know how’s the girl’s feeling. But it seemed that she has ever cares about me. One of the example is when my hair got long and messy, she told me to cut it. Even she said that ‘via’ her friend, I just believe and did what she told me. Her friends always support me, but I was so pathetic back there.

-There’s one day, I met the girl of the first chapter near my school. I’ve ever think that how if I know more of her. But we’re in a different school and even though she’s my neighbor, there’s something made me forget that thing.-

I keep liking the girl of the second chapter until I graduated. But all I did were as same as I told you before. However, even though we attend different schools, her picture still attached in my heart (-_-, what a melodramatic…).

That’s the little chit-chat of mine. The next chapter will be the continuation of this. There’s a spoiler for the next chapter: my condition will be better (remember that I always said that I’m so pathetic, hahaha).

My “So-called” Love Story – Chapter 1

Once upon a time, there’s a boy born in a great condition.  He’s still blind about life, and…

no, this is not a fairy tale… just direct to the point…

The age of 7, yes, that’s the age when I firstly liked a girl. I’m a second grade of elementary school back there, and the girl is my classmate. In this age, and in this psychological development phase, you know, it’s just a ‘puppy love’.

The girl is one of the most beautiful girl in the class, so no wonder I like her. She’s also one of the smartest. I hardly pass her grade, although I’m not quite a smart boy.

“There’s one day, I walked home together with her. I’m really happy back there, and you know what? I told my parent that I’ve got a date…”

At the grade of  4, I finally could  pass her final score/grade. What’s so memorable is that after I know that, I suddenly come closer to her and shake her hand. I said, “Congratulation (name), you’ve got a good grade.” It’s so silly, knowing that I got better grade than her but I’m the one who said congratulation. You must be know that I did it on purpose, to get her “Congratulation” saying and touch her hand (hahaha).

5th grade was the day. I don’t know wether this is a coincidence or not, but she was also moved to another school,  same school as mine. I still like her, but there, at the school I moved into, I got competitors. One from the same grade, another one is from the lower grade. I was being intimidated by one of them. Although I keep to like her, I’m scared and I couldn’t do a thing. I’m so weak back there, ‘fragile’ and so coward. It’s still going on until we finally graduated. What is so pathetic is that I never know what’s her feeling to me. I just  kept to thought that she loves me too (silly, really).

We were finally divided, we choose different school to continue studying. I still didn’t know her feeling. Like I said before, I just kept to think that we love each other (maybe that’s because we’ve been in the same class from the first grade).

Will my ‘love’ still into her, or it’s not? The answer should be in the next chapter of my love stories…

My “So-called” Love Story – Prologue

I should tell you upfront, why should I called this “so-called” love story? It’s because of I think the stories will not quite about love, but just a likeness of a male to females. I myself still doubt, which one of the stories that include love inside.

I just want to share you about my experiences in falling in love.  I doubt they could be inspiring (hahaha), but the thing is the sharing story itself. I will start the story from the time I like a girl and end it with something that I  myself  still don’t know.

I won’t write a long prologue, and I hope you’ll interested with the stories. Have a good read :).

[J-Movie] Ima, Ai ni Yukimasu/ Be With You (2004)

• Movie: Be with You
• Romaji: Ima, ai ni yukimasu
• Japanese: いま、会いにゆきます
• Director: Nobuhiro Doi
• Writer: Takuji Ichikawa, Yoshikazu Okada
• Producer: Hideyuki Honma
• Cinematographer Takahide Shibanushi
• Release Date: October 30, 2004
• Runtime: 119 min
• Language: Japanese
• Country: Japan
• Genre: Drama, Fantasy, Romance

Plot:

When two souls find one anoter , nothing can tear them apart. Widower Takumi (Shidou Nakamura) lives a quiet life with his six-year-old son Yuji (Akashi Takei) after the loss of wife and mother Mio (Yuko Takeuchi). Yuji unfailingly remembers her promise to him: “I’ll be with you again in a year’s time, when the rains come.” On the first anniversary of her passing, Takumi and Yuji are taking a walk in the woods when they come across a woman sheltering from a monsoon downpour. She bears an uncanny resemblance to Mio, but has no recollection of who she is or what she is doing there. Family life resumes from where they left off, while Takumi and Mio’s memories of their first encounter in high school come flooding back. However, their new life together is interrupted by the discovery of Mio’s old diary, which reveals the secrets of her past and how they must say goodbye once more in six weeks time…

Cast:

• Yuko Takeuchi … Mio
• Shido Nakamura … Takumi
• Akashi Takei … Yuji
• Karen Miyama … Aya (Yuji’s classmate)
• Yosuke Asari … Takumi (high school days)
• Yuta Hiraoka … Yuji (18 years old)
• Chihiro Otsuka … Mio (high school days)
• Mikako Ichikawa … Midori Nagase (Takumi’s co-worker)
• Katsuo Nakamura … Takumi’s Boss
• You … Yuji’s Teacher
• Suzuki Matsuo … Owner of Cake Shop
• Fumiyo Kohinata … Dr. Noguchi
• Tokimasa Tanabe
• Kei Tanaka

Author’s note:

“It’s the best movie in my life”

This movie became the first step of my journey of Japanese movies watch.  I was a movie maniac back there, also an anime fan, but I have not ever think that I will be addicted to Japanese movies.

One day, me and my friend was planning to stay overnight at another one friend’s home.  We prepared everything, such as snack, new video games, other stuffs, and movies .  On-the-spot, we was playing video games and chatting during the day, but in the night we decided to watch some movies. While I’m playing my friend’s PSP, one of them play the first movie.  “Water Boys” (J-Movie, 2001) was on the screen.  I was not looking forward to it, therefore I continued to play PSP.  I take a peek while the game is loading, then I realized that the movie is very funny, then I ‘throw’ the PSP and join them to watch.  Laugh out very loud after, then my friend offer another movie he brings.  He told me that the genre is drama, and uh, it makes me quite pessimist how the story could be.  Because it’s already late, we decided to watch it in the morning.

Ima, Ai ni Yukimasu (Be With You) is playing.  I stare to the screen and try to concentrate.  As the time passes by, the screen blackened; the end.  I still stared at the screen.  I couldn’t believe what I’ve already watch, it’s so beautiful.  I keep imagining the movie the whole day, and I told it to my friend. Surprisingly, he said that he did the same too when he firstly watch the movie. Time passes swiftly, it’s time for me to go home.  Another surprise, the condition inside my house was totally remembered me about the movie. It makes me really couldn’t forget the movie.

This experience made me curious about Japanese movies, so I started to collect them.

This movie is based from a novel by Takuji Ichikawa.  I haven’t read it yet but some said that it’s greater than the movie.  I couldn’t imagine, just watching the movie already made me addicted.

I’m not a quite good reviewer, but here’s one quotation:

“A cinematic masterpiece. The best ever, 3 October 2005

Author: cyberpogo from Australia

I do not consider myself to be in the target market for this kind of movie (male, late 20’s). However, I bought this movie off an online site due to some reader recommendations. After finishing the movie, I was obsessed!!! I couldn’t stop thinking about it and couldn’t stop raving about it.

The acting and the direction is great, although a bit cheesy at times, but it works well. Yuko Takeuchi is such a beautiful actress. What I mean by beautiful is not her physical appearance (although she is pretty), but by the way she conveys her emotions and makes the viewer believe that she really is Mio. Everyone else does their role perfectly too, and the soundtrack really does a great job, especially the overture towards the end of the movie.

Overall, anyone who has a pulse will enjoy this movie. Personally it affected me a lot and it has turned me into a Japanese movie fan. You will struggle to find a negative review about this movie anywhere, and I really encourage all the males to watch it especially so they can get in touch with their emotional side (haha…). I’ve seen it seven times within two months and it still affects me each time I watch it. Some of my friends thinks I’m crazy but they don’t understand the relationship I have with these characters (hahaha…I can’t believe I’m typing this..my friends will laugh at me). Undoubtedly in my books, the best movie ever, and a moment to cherish with loved ones, or even by yourself (so the guys can cry and not feel embarrassed that anyone is looking at them).“ (IMDb.com)

Orange Range – Hana

ORANGE RANGE

HANA / FLOWER

[J-POP]

[Ost. Ima, Ai ni Yukimasu /Be With You (2004)]

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Original / Romaji Lyrics

Hanabira no youni chiriyuku naka de
Yume mitai ni  kimi ni deaeta KISEKI
Aishiatte  KENKA shita
Ironna kabe  futari de norikoete
Umare kawatte mo  anata no soba de  hana ni narou

Itsumade mo aru no darou ka  ORE no maue ni aru taiyou wa
Itsumade mo mamori kireru darou ka
Naki  warai  okoru kimi no hyoujou wo
Izure subete nakunaru no naraba
Futari no deai ni motto kansha shiyou
Ano hi  ano toki  ano basho no KISEKI wa
Mata atarashii kiseki wo umu darou

Aisuru koto de tsuyoku naru koto
Shinjiru koto de norikireru koto
Kimi ga nokoshita MONO wa ima mo mune ni
Hora kagayaki ushinawazu ni
Shiawase ni omou  meguri aeta koto
ORE no egao torimodoseta koto
“Arigatou” afureru kimochi idaki  susumu michinori

*Hanabira no youni chiriyuku naka de
Yume mitai ni  kimi ni deaeta KISEKI
Aishiatte  KENKA shite
Ironna kabe  futari de norikoete
Umare kawatte mo  anata ni aitai

**Hanabira no youni chitte yuku koto
Kono sekai de subete uke irete yukou
Kimi ga boku ni nokoshita MONO
“Ima” to iu genjitsu no takaramono
Dakara boku wa seiippai ikite  hana ni narou

Hana wa nande kareru no darou
Tori wa nande toberu no darou
Kaze wa nande fuku no darou
Tsuki wa nande akariterasu no

Naze BOKU wa KOKO ni iru n darou
Naze KIMI wa KOKO ni iru n darou
Naze KIMI deaeta n darou
KIMI ni deaeta koto  sore wa unmei

(*REPEAT)

(**REPEAT)

Ame agari  niji kakari  ao arashi ni umareshi hikari
Koko ni yuruginai taisetsuna mono
Kidzuite’ru “aisuru” to iu koto
Mada arukeru darou? mieteru n da mou
“Omoi” toki wo koe  toowa ni hibike
Kimi no yorokobi  kimi no itami  kimi no subete yo
Saa  saki hokore  motto  motto  motto

English Translation

Like a flower petal withering away
The encounter with you was like a dream
Being in love, getting into fights
We conquered over many walls together
Even after I’m reborn, I shall be a flower Close to you

Will this sun be above us forever?
Will I be able to protect you forever?
Your expressions of you cry laugh and anger
If everything is going to fade one day
We should appreciate each other more
That time, that place, when that miracle occured
It will bring about another miracle

Becoming stronger by loving one
Overcoming things by believing in one
The things you left are still in my heart
See, without ever losing its shine
I feel blessed For meeting you
For bringing back my smile
I continue to walk holding close to this emotion of “Thank you”

*Like a flower petal withering away
The encounter with you was like a dream
Being in love, getting into fights
We conquered over many walls together
Even if I’m reborn, I want to meet you again

**Like a flower petal withering away
Let us accept everything in this world
The things you left me
The treasure of reality I call “Now”
That’s why I shall live to my fullest and become a flower

Why do flowers wilt
Why do birds fly
Why does the wind blow
Why does the moon shine above

Why am I here
Why are you here
Why did I meet you
Meeting you, that was destiny

*repeat

**repeat

After the rain A rainbow casts A light shalt be born upon a storn
There’s an unyielding important thing here
I’ve realized what it means “to love”
You can still walk can’t you? You can see it already
“Emotions” will cross time And shall ring into eternity
Your happiness Your pain Your everything
Now, Bloom with pride More, more, and more….

Transliterated by Feiku-chan

Translated by djkasceus

Source: http://www.animelyrics.com/jpop/orangerange/orhana.htm

Love?

“Love is describable, but every single person has their own description.”

For me, love is one of the most important aspects of human’s life.  It’s an enormous, huge power that fill the joy of living socially and spiritually. I could simply agreed with someone which called love is one of “God’s greatest gift”, although I prefer to call it “God’s greatest artwork”. Without love, I’m not sure that somebody could communicate each other well nor believe in God.

My simple saying:

You can’t smile peacefully

You can’t laugh peacefully

You can’t like someone peacefully

You can’t peacefully smile while eating your wife’s undelicious cooking

or peacefully smell the odor of husband’s body after working all day long

without love

Love giving me peacefulness, I can’t deny. But then differ some other things that always being called “Love”; lust and “like”.

“Let’s make love.”  Could you call this love? I can’t.

“I love her like crazy.”  I can’t barely said this is love, can you?

Well maybe some of them which said those fill up some love, but love was very often being equated as lust or like.

Another simply saying: We can’t live without love.

Love is to share, everything.  Even just some words like “keep on your spirit!” or just a little smile.

Like, affection, sympathy, etc are some little pieces from something I called “Love”.

Love is not only about mate, male and female, and romance.  But the thing is feeling.  It’s tend to be affection, and family life is closest one to love life. There’s something such as feeling that is more binding in family relationship. There’s string of love between child, wife, husband, father, mother, sister, brother, and all of the member.

Another one, maybe the last, is fell in love.

Me myself still doubt about how to describe it, but well, I think it’s one of ways for us to find out the meaning of love, our love. To fall in love is a natural process of human life.

I believe you have your own words, I believe all of you are love spreader. 🙂 ❤